Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Ephesians 5:15-16
This past winter was much too long for me. I’m not used to cold weather. And here in Korea, it was COLD. The river actually froze over. Can you believe it? I’ll never forget the one Sunday I went to church and stayed inside from 10 am to 3 pm because it was 5 degrees outside. That was pretty awful to me.
But somehow, before I even had time to put away my heater, South Korea went from freezing to HOT and now I’m sweating after walking around for an hour.
That’s the thing about seasons — they change. And even if you don’t like change, you’ll have to face it.
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about this season of life I’m in. It’s incredibly joyous and wonderful. I’m living in a foreign country. I’m young. I’m meeting lots of new people from all over the world and am making lifelong friends. I’ve gotten close to many people. But just like those cherry blossom trees, I know it’ll all fade to a different shade and I’ll be in a new season.
And even though you might think I’m living in contentment, the truth is that I’m always thinking about the next season of life, the next chapter to dive into. I get excited dreaming about the future.
I think about my career. I think about writing books. I think about the city I’m going to live in. I think about all the places I have yet to visit. I think about marriage (and mostly if it’ll ever happen for me). I think about all the goals I want to accomplish.
And sometimes I get so caught up in the future that I forget to live in the chapter God has laid out for me. I forget that there’s a story being written NOW.
A lot of times, I think we want to peek over the curtain and see what’s in the next act. Do we get that job? Do we find love? Do we make new friends? But most of all, are we happy?
It really comes down to one thing: trust. Do we trust God? Do we trust that God is in the future? And if so, then why are we worrying about the next chapter? Why are we so eager to skip ahead and see what’s next? God wouldn’t have brought us into this season of life if He didn’t have a purpose for it.
Live in this season. Explore what’s going on in this chapter. Don’t forget the friends you have now. Cultivate those relationships. Don’t dream so much that you forget to give your current job your 100% effort.
Yes, what you do today can be important for tomorrow. But tomorrow is also a new day. Time moves so fast. It’s scary. Sometimes it feels like air slipping through my hands.
I pray and hope I don’t miss what’s going on now. I don’t want to look back and see that I should’ve loved the people around me more, instead of focusing on dreams.
A week ago, I went into a workshop about entrepreneuring. The speaker asked us to write down our version of success. I wrote this: “Success is living in contentment. It’s not wanting more, but knowing you’re right where God wants you to be and that is enough.”
This is my desire. I want to know that I am where God wants me. Most of all, I want this to be enough.
Lord, let it be enough.