The “life” in the quarter-life crisis

Dear Reader, I am 24 years old and have spent the last year wondering what I should do with my life. I thought I’d be fabulous by now. Instead, in 2014, I went into full-on crazy mode.  I moved back home and looked for … Continue reading

Stop Signs and Red Lights

Few people in this world dislike stop signs more than me. I know they’re helpful and all, but gosh dang they are ANNOYING. You have to stop, literally stop, your driving for a few seconds before moving again. Of course, some people don’t stop at all. But, I do. Maybe that’s why I dislike them so much. I actually try to obey the laws of traffic.

Or red lights. Who likes red lights other than girls putting on their makeup or people checking a text? Red lights are especially annoying if you’re in a hurry. Oh gosh. If you’re in a hurry, forget stop signs OR red lights. You might as well think the Earth is tumbling down in the form of traffic signs.

Now, let’s get symbolic about this.

Sometimes, God puts stop signs and red lights in front of me. And I wait at them for hours, days, weeks.

I can break the law and try to keep moving forward, but God is all, “No. You’re going to stop. You aren’t going to slide or drift. I’m going to do everything in my power to make you stop and PAY ATTENTION TO ME.”

And you know what’s helpful about stopping everything to get done what God needs you to get done? It works. It’s life saving. It’s revitalizing.

Without stop signs or red lights, the road would be way dangerous. And sometimes we try to ignore those stupid signs and lights because we think we’re in a hurry. One time, I ran a red light because I was so used to having a green light whenever I crossed the road. Of course there was a cop to stop me. Of course.

If you don’t stop and get done what God needs you to get done, don’t be surprised if He puts a stop sign or red light in front of you. He might even send someone (hopefully not a police officer) to lecture you on the importance of listening to Him.

Who knows? It just might be the thing you need.


The Unqualified Queen

Right when I think I’m so sure about what I’m going to do for the rest of my life, life kicks in. Funny how that works.

This week, I started my job with a missions organization called Cru. Basically, I’ll be going to a college campus and sharing the Gospel with students. Right now, I’m only part-time staff, but I cannot help wonder where I’m going to be next year. I have a year to figure it out, but I’m already stressing. Yeah, I know, I’m writing a blog post about the future stressing me out. Original.

You signed up for this.

I know I want to write books/screenplays, but the problem is, I love more than just writing. What do I do when there are millions of slaves in the world and I want to help them? What do I do when people don’t know Jesus and I have a voice to tell them about Him? There are so many jobs in the world and I want to do them all.

Today, I told my friend that my dream job would be Christine Caine’s job. Christine Caine is a traveling evangelist and founder of The A21 campaign, an organization that helps victims of human trafficking.

Seriously though. Give me her job. Can I get a master’s in “traveling the world preaching the Gospel, writing books, and social activism?” No? Bummer.

The thing is, amazing Godly women like Christine Caine didn’t get in their positions overnight. They were faithful in the small and then God gave them larger roles.

I’m not saying joining Cru is small or even a stepping stone into something bigger. In matter of fact, this is an important job, which is why I’m already freaking out about it. I don’t know what the heck I’m doing. This was not part of my plan for my life. I was supposed to move to LA and be in the film industry. Obviously, something went awry.

I was thinking about this the other day and God couldn’t help but remind me of Queen Esther in the Bible.

Esther grew up an orphan, not knowing what was going to happen to her. Maybe she just wanted to be a mom. Maybe she had a simple plan for herself. One day, something unexpected happened and she was chosen to be Queen. 10 bucks says she wondered, “What am I doing here?” She must have been confused as to why God chose her to be in a role she was highly unqualified for. She didn’t go to finishing schools or grow up in a royal family. She was just a normal girl who lived under the radar.

Already, I feel completely unqualified to be sharing the Gospel with Cru. I am not the most social creature and seem to stumble on my words all the time. I don’t know what I’m doing here. I am greatly out of my comfort zone. But, I know God has led me to this position for some reason beyond my knowing.

God put Queen Esther in a royal position to save the jews. Maybe I’ll save a few people too.